Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Single Ward Drop Out ??? Time to?

I'm 29 and I still attend a singles ward.  When I was 19 and away from home my home ward was dissolved and my home ward was split into two stakes and a few wards.  I came home to no home ward so I decided to start to go to a singles ward.  It really was the appropriate choice for a college student to make.  I have enjoyed many years in the wards while being single, but I feel it's time for a change.
Why the change?  I know I'm still single, but Sunday I was late for sacrament and there was a young guy sitting out there and to be friendly I asked if he was going to the local college.  He said yes, and I asked what he was studying.  He answered and I commented.  Then he said yeah I think I saw you there huh.  I said probably not, I went there when you were a child.  He said he was almost 21 so he doubted it.  I thought for a second doing some math in my head and he was for real a child!  I was there like 9 years ago.  He was 11, not even old enough to pass the sacrament.  Although he still kept flattering me by my youthful looks I knew the truth and it kinda bothered me.  What am I doing in a ward full of super young people?  I'm not a cougar yet!  Maybe if I was 40 and dating a successful 30 year old stud I would be, but to be a cougar there needs to be a 10 year age difference and well....I don't want to temp myself with these children.
My goal right now is to move.  Move where there is more options...and not just in the man field, but also the job market too.
I keep thinking about some comment my uncle made to my cousin who is just a bit older than me.  I don't know why things this set of cousins say to me just stick in my head.  For example, when I was a child they told me about a scary movie where a lady went to the bathroom in the dark and a snake went up her butt....I still have to look in the toilet and for sure have light on while I pee.  Also, I developed faster than one of them who was a few years older than me and she told me guys don't like more than a handful.  I was a D by the time I was in the 7th grade!  What's a girl to think!  I thought no guy would like me because my boobs were too big. ha ha ha.  Ok, back to my point... My uncle told my cousin, his baby girl, that her eggs were drying out.  I know it was a joke, but I need to get more serious here people.  I love being single, but it's time I get a desire for more huh?